Thursday, August 12, 2010

Bigger Picture Moment: A Lost Opportunity?

Bigger Picture Moment

Satan is celebrating a minor victory.

I gave into the frustration and lost myself in anger. I yelled. I gave mean looks. I scared my daughter. I can't believe how angry I was. I didn't recognise myself.

I prayed...
Then let myself get angry again, completely nullifying the prayer.

I lost control. Control of my emotions, myself and the situation.

An opportunity to teach was lost. My child only learned, Mom is scary when she's angry. Nothing positive came from that event, except, maybe, these afterthoughts.

When we loose ourselves to anger we loose the opportunity to witness to others.

While I don't believe my relationship with Jesus is based on how much I act like Him, some non believers seem to think it does. {Could you imagine someone saying the only way to have a good marriage is to be just like your husband?!}

But if we, Christians, want to share our knowledge, the Love, the Word, all that is Good, we have to do our best to live as Jesus would. And that means instead of giving in to the impulse we need to pause before we move/act/speak.

When I got out of the Navy, I struggled with the loss of belonging to something. I do belong, not to something, but to Someone! I have to remember I'm a part of something bigger and when people look at me, they might not recognize I'm a Christian, but I want them to see good in me, I hope they see wisdom, a sense of peace (a peace only God can give). Again, like the in the Navy where I was constantly held to a higher standard (law enforcement often is), I have to live like others are watching, because, somewhere, they are.

While I'm not the type to walk up to a stranger and ask if they've accepted Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior, I would like to be the type of person someone who is seeking the Lord could say, "I can ask her."

Satan isn't celebrating today.

I wasn't pleased this morning when my darling B decided to have, pretty much, the same attitude as yesterday but I did love having the chance to respond in a TOTALLY different way. This time, in the middle of her fit, I knelt down, lifted her onto my lap and, with her, asked God for guidance. She was still punished but I remained calm and she quickly calmed. We were able to talk about her behavior and why it was inappropriate, we moved on and had a lovely day.

Make every effort to live in peace with all men and to be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord.
Hebrews 12:14/NIV


  1. I just want to say THANK YOU! I often forget that even raising my voice at the kids does nothing but make them fear me, and that not what I want at all. I needed this post today. Thank you :)

  2. Those moments are so difficult, but they're good in that they help us to see where we can improve. At least that's what I tell myself ;)

  3. Oh, I've had those moments...those 'Do I really want to project this anger?' moments that are so difficult to stop once in process. Love that you were able to see it with new eyes the next day :)

  4. I know what you mean completely, my friend. I'll be giving you a call tomorrow. :) Love you!


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